Bittersweet Bundle of Misery

I am starting to like Japan now.
This place is not so bad like in the first two weeks that I HATE it here.

Last week I got terribly sick.
I ate some fish and the bone struck in my teeth and they problaly got some kind of infection.
I got ferver but I had to ride the trian to school.
I hated Shibuya, I think there`re too much people. And I just couldn`t understand why Japanese government didn`t have any law forbid smoking in public places.
I got real headach from cigarette smoke. I think I might be allergic to it.
 
At first I hang about with Chinese and Taiwannese. I hoped that being Asian might help us getting to know each others faster. But I was wrong. I don`t speak Chinese and when they speak Chinese I don`t undertand a thing and it makes me feel bad because it`s like I am all alone.

Now, I hang out with Ameircan, I try to tell myself that it`s okay but somehow, I still feel like I am out of places. But I`m sure it will be okay as time goes by..

Now I realize that I am so ambigous.
I am not a girl and I am not a boy, I am something in between.
No one here is going to enjoy stuff I like to do but I don`t want to change the way I am.
Well, I should say that happens when I am in Thailand too... I want it to step it but I can`t and I don`t want to.

Now, I just need to be happy.
I think I can do it.
Like, I said, I am starting to like Japan.
And I will .. definitely..

and.. I start to dress like Japanese now
I wore suit to school, I know people in Thailand don`t do that, but it`s normal in Japan.


My Japanese name is Noeru, it`s from Noel.
Talk about Noel... I NEED to go to Furi Rock!
Oasis is super popular in Japan, I am so happy! HOORAY!!


PS. I hope my postcard reach him.. *sigh*